Emotional Rollercoaster #2

Up and down we go.

I started spotting on Tuesday, it got worse on Wednesday to the point where I was depressed and worried, now it's back to how it was on Tuesday.  Implantation bleeding?  Who frigging knows.  I'm trying to keep calm and relaxed, but it's always there in the back of my mind.  The constant worry of not knowing anything until Monday.  Tomorrow I will pee on a stick!  I might even do it tonight because I have 3 tests just sitting around, also, I'm impatient!

Monday is our official beta test date, and I really hope that I get some high numbers so that I can stop worrying about this, and start worrying about the 12 week wait!

Whoever said pregnancy was easy was an idiot!

This will be me in a few hours!

Of All The Days...

So yesterday was transfer day.
It was Friday the 13th.
It was a full moon.
It was also Mercury Retrograde.

The full moon is considered a "Honey Moon" as it happened on a Friday 13th.  That next time anyone will see that will be in 2049.  That's pretty cool.

I can't say that I wasn't intimidated by the thought of transferring two of our remaining four embryos with such notoriously ominous signs, but that was the date that we were given, and there's not much that we can do other than to throw our superstitions aside and just hope for the best.

Lance and I headed down to Vancouver around 9am.  We were gonna head to Denny's for some breakfast before the transfer.  Unfortunately someone's Friday 13th wasn't going so well and we encountered a huge accident on Hwy1 that resulted in a long detour through town.  By the time we arrived in Vancouver, we only had 40 minutes before our appointment so we decided that it would be best to eat after.  Hopefully the half a bagel that we'd each had before we left would tide us over.  Lol.

I started getting nervous as we were sitting in the waiting room.  What if the embryos didn't survive the thaw?  What if something goes wrong and they can't do the transfer?  Millions of questions and concerns invaded my thoughts.  Lance told me to quit worrying and that everything would be fine.  And he was right.

The nurse greeted us as we entered the procedure room. Dr. Kashyap followed shortly behind, with her kind, calming personality.  The embryologist came in the room and introduced himself as "our babysitter".  It's a nice atmosphere, if you don't think about the fact that I have my legs up in the air with a speculum in my hoohaa displayed for all the world to see.

The embryologist returned back to the lab and we watched on the big screen as he captured the two embryos into a catheter and brought them out for the Dr.  Then the magic happened.  We witnessed the "Shooting star" again as the embryos were pushed out of the catheter and into what I really hope will be their home for the next 9 months.

Our two embryos.  Six days old and ready to meet their new home.

A comparison with the first embryo at day 5.

Now all there is to do is sit and wait it out.  We can officially test on June 23rd.  I'm sure I won't make it that long without doing a home pregnancy test, but we'll see.  I'm trying my hardest (and failing) to not google too much about this cycle.  I've tried comparing my embryos to other day 6 embryos, but they're all so different.  We have a 4AA and a 4BB, at least that's what they were frozen as.  I don't know if they'd be a 5 or 6 AA/BB by this point, or if they're still considered a 4... Way too much to learn...But I digress...

We transferred two embryos on a Friday the 13th with a full moon, and Mercury being all retrograde and stuff... The more "fingers crossed" we get, the better.  

I will update very soon, I'm sure!

Transfer Day Tomorrow

I just got the phone call from the embryologist and they're all set to do the transfer at noon tomorrow.  Lance has taken the day off of work and we'll head out to Vancouver in the morning.  I might make him take me out for a good breakfast first.  ;)

I asked about the thawing of the embryos and he said that they do it first thing in the morning.  It takes about 45 minutes, then they let them sit until noon to heal and grow a little bit more.  We'll get a picture of the embryos, then I'm gonna spend the rest of the day with my legs up in the air.  Hehehe.

My fingers, toes and anything else that can be crossed, are crossed!!!

An Update (Original, eh?)

So it's been a little while since my last update.  I started taking the nasty nasal spray on May 22nd.  I hated it!!!  I'd actually rather have been giving myself injections than having to take that hideous spray!  It would send me into sneezing, sniffling fits about 20 minutes after taking it, then I'd be able to taste it down my throat and it would taste like ear wax (don't even ask!  Lol).  I had to use the spray twice a day, then on May 31st, I added Estrace pills to the mix.  They weren't bad at all.  I didn't feel any different taking these medications than I did not taking them, so I was a little worried that they weren't working.

We've been stressing out about the potential transfer date as they had given us a tentative date of May 14th and Lance has his best friends stag party that day.  He's the best man, so he's planned it all and he can't be in two places at once.  Unselfish Marie wants him to go to the stag and have a good time, but selfish Marie kind of wants her fiancée in the same room as her when she gets pregnant.  I don't think that's too unreasonable!

I had my first ultrasound this morning and didn't quite know how to feel while I was driving out there.  Were they going to tell me that the lining wasn't good again and that they'd have to cancel the cycle?  Would they have to bump up the medications that I'm taking?  Of course, traffic sucked so the drive felt like it took twice as long.

Dr Kashyap did the ultrasound and good news... My lining is 10.5mm thick and my ovaries are quiet. They're going to go ahead and do a double embryo transfer on Friday.  This means that I can stop taking that horrific nasal spray, and I can stay at the same dose of Estrace rather than increasing it to 3 times daily... The only poopy thing is that I have to start taking the Endometrin three times a day now.  Yuck!  Oh well... Hopefully it'll all be worth it in the end!!!